Child your Forgiven and Loved

I am laying in my love seat (i'm so small I fit right into the 5 foot space perfectly) watching the Mavericks versus the Nuggets (Jon keeps screaming and getting angry, eh, I knew this wasn't the year for the Mavs). I feel so blessed to be in the situation that I am in. Not only am I engaged to my best friend, I have been accepted into Graduate school (where I have already received several scholarships/grants), I am now a car owner, I have a great job that I am learning so much at, I have the love of my family and friends. I truly feel as though the awkwardness of my life previously was just a huge stepping stone to what feels like bliss. The idea of me being a mother and a wife just seems only a few heartbeats away, and yet, i'm still so scared of what is to come. Within the past year I have become even stronger in my faith in my Lord. I get now what it means to truly live your life through God's love; when we do this, he provides all that we need. I'm not trying to be all evangelical and stuff, but my life is truth that their is a higher being who loves us all.

I am not a perfect person, I have done things that would not be considered immoral, yet I am loved and forgiven by him. I feel so thankful for all that he has done for me and for all that he has done for my family and for Jon and his family. Some could say I was a wild child in high school, the typical staying out late teenage girl flirting with boys, underage drinking at times, but the first week before college started God put an amazing person in my life. At that time I was still attending church, but young and naive I didn't give my heart to God just my physical self every sunday. When I met Jon something inside of me wanted to be a good person, to settle down and respect myself as a temple. Jon is my angel, he saved me from all of the negative things I probably would have gotten into had I not met him. And now, almost 5 years later, God still uses Jon daily in my life to show his love to me. We both depend on each other for support and encouragement; we depend on each other for advice and for love.

So, as our lives begin to blossom I can't help but smile everytime I feel God is with me. When my favorite christian song comes on the radio I look up and smile, when I think of my Dad and how he has fought through his cancer, I smile, when I think of how strong my Mom was while supporting her fragile and tired bodied husband, I smile, and when I think of Jon as a father and my future husband, I smile. God provides so many opportunities to show us he is here and alive within our lives. We just have to look for those moments of faith, to search for those special songs that come on the radio, to open our hearts to a neverending love.

Because afer all, we are all children in God's eyes and we are all forgiven and loved.